Who am I?

Wow.  That is a loaded question.  As said in the side bar - I am a believer in God, a lover of God.  I am a wife, a mother, a stay at home mom.  A deep thinker.  I am smart.  I am insecure, overweight, and afraid.  There is so much that makes up who I am.
  I am the youngest of three. A mother to three (soon).  I have the most amazing husband!  He loves me through the good and bad, despite my many flaws.  He is a believer, he is kind, considerate, giving, a hard worker, a wonderful provider, handsome, strong, loving, and so many other things.  I have three boys.  2yr, 13m, and 9m.  All three adopted from Ethiopia.  My two year old is adorable, funny, loving, strong-willed, determined, and full of laughter.  He has brought so much joy to our lives in the past 20 months.  My 13 month old is still a mystery.  He is still in an orphanage in Ethiopia.  He is beautiful, full of expression.  When we met him, he was fearful, but opened up and became full of smiles and laughter.  We will see how his personality grows and develops when we get him home.  My 9 month old is also a mystery.  He is with our middle in an orphanage in Ethiopia.  He is funny.  His pictures crack us up.  When we met him, we was curious and clueless.  We can't wait to begin to parent our new two boys! 

To be honest, I am scared to death!  I am still trying to figure out how to fully parent one child.  Dan and I have spent so much time learning to be parents.  We have tons of family to watch, we have taken classes, we have read the scriptures; but we are clueless.  Every child is unique and comes with their own personalities.  In our case, they each also come with their own history.  I have yet to figure out how to productively take care of the house, myself, Mason (our oldest), provide a wonderful meal for Dan when he gets home, exercise, clean, sew, maybe bring in a little income to help out, do house projects.  It is all terrifying. It is time-management, multi-tasking, and a balancing-act all rolled into one.  It is a struggle.  I try each day to hold it together and make it look like I got something productive done! 

I just pray that those who stumble across this blog will be uplifted and encouraged.  Maybe you will feel like you are not alone in this big world;  like there is someone out there who may know exactly how you are feeling and dealing with it themselves as well.  This is for mainly for me to get out how I feel and I thank you for following my journey.